I Used to Be "Normal" Now I'm Happy


I used to be "normal." I had a career, a home, endless belongings, and a "typical" life I saw all around me. But something wasn't quite right.

I couldn't understand why a well-educated, privileged woman who had everything she wanted often times couldn't get out of bed in the morning.

Being known for my smile and cheerfulness and knowing somehow that this low-grade depression was not me, I always got up and went to work and continued my life of having-everything-I-wanted-and-had-worked-so-hard-to-achieve!

Then one day I found myself in completely opposite circumstances (an apartment, an unknown career and a completely unfamiliar future) and my life took a dramatic turn. I was becoming awakened!

I remember beginning to search. I was reading and rereading everything I could about life, the meaning of life, life fulfillment and finding purpose in life. I read modern-day mystics like Martha Beck, Byron Katie, Don Miguel Ruiz, Deepak Chopra, and Wayne Dyer. Why hadn't I learned any of this in all of my education?!?!

I couldn't get enough of them! I continued reading and writing down what they said and revisiting them, rereading them, studying them until they slowly became a part of my being.

As I became more and more aware, I also began to allow myself to recognize and accept  and then question the stresses of my life. I was beginning to recognize that I spent almost my entire waking day filled with anxiety about food. I was always hungry and yet always worried about my weight!

I spent a lifetime consumed by and drawn to articles and magazines that taught about food and health and "beauty." I was terrified of eating fats (cheese, butter, oils) and even meat.

My weight fluctuated constantly; gain then starve, gain then starve, gain then starve. It was maddening. I knew there had to be a better way! Scientists knew the nutritional needs of animals...why didn't I know the most necessary information of my basic nutritional needs as a human?!?!

Then I met Maria Emmerich...and she introduced me to a whole new genre of modern mystics! Sally Fallon, Gary Taubes, Mark Sisson, Loren Cordain, Nina Planck, William Davis, Jimmy Moore and on and on and on....

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